yep -- it's caleb and graceee again, with a different layout. this isn't a blog for nasty posts about other people, so dont worry. just a space for us to leave thoughts, and express what we're feeling through the power of words. xo

I feel like I'm losing friends. Maybe some of them just weren't friends to begin with. Maybe I haven't been a friend either. I don't know, and I guess the reason for that is lack of communication.

I've tried being honest, nice, straightforward with people. I slip alot and I make mistakes, and I guess a shallow person could take one of my mistakes as a picture of what I really am like. That isn't my fault, and neither should I really worry about what others think of me. But, however, keeping a clean record and making myself a good testimony isn't something I can just "whatever", or "let them think what they want" to. For me, it just doesnt' work like that. If someone has a problem with me, because of something they've seen in me, then honest confrontation seems like a must. How else would ANYONE be able to improve if everyone just says "Oh, if she wants to be like that, let her be. I don't care." That isn't what the Bible says to do, even though not getting involved seems like the right thing to do alot of the time. It is, when it is really none of your business. But then, if that someone causing the scene is one of your friends, then it kind of is your business. You'd want your friend, if that person really is your friend that is, to be in the right, wouldn't you? I think it's good practice to tell the person what you honestly think is the right thing to do. If that person brushes you off and gets mad at you for "judging" him or her, then really, you've done all that you can. After that, "not getting involved" would be more ideal, I'd say.

I'm done with being touchy about what others say about me out of hate, and everyone who reads this should read this earnestly. We can't all be growing up like silly little children, selfish and immature. If we're to grow up at all, this would be one important area for us to improve on. Talking about people behind their backs, getting upset over little miscellaneous things, taking what others say to another level and twisting their words around, having fickled minds, taking "revenge" on others- really, if you think about it, these things are what children do.

A child goes up to his best friend and says, "Billy stole my yoyo. We're not going to be friends with him now, you hear?"
A child's mother refuses to let him get go over to his friend's house, and he gets upset and throws his shoe on the floor.

How often have you heard someone come up to you and say something like, "Oh my gosh, Mary, can you believe Belinda? She totally stole my idea and is wearing the EXACT same hair as mine to school now. I can't believe her. I'm so not sitting by her at lunch today."
Sound familiar? Or...
Your mom doesn't let you go to a party, and you storm out of the kitchen into your room, where you get on your computer and furiously Facebook a note about how horrible your mother is.

We all aren't far from having childlike attitudes, if you ask me. I think a change is desperately needed, and I speak for myself. I've been trying to for a while now, and I pray someone will see changes in me soon.



Grace

On the 12th day of Christmas my true love sent to me,

Grace



Dear God,

How are you? Busy with the armageddon preparations, I suppose. I know in Your Word it says that when we talk to You, You'll listen. But sometimes I get moments when I do wonder if You're really there, and if You're listening. I guess it'll take some faith to believe You're listening to me right now.

Lord, I want to serve You. I want to do what You want me to do. I've been hoping and praying that You'll call me to be a missionary someday, but I know I'll accept whatever is in Your will.

Why do I feel abandoned sometimes? There are people out there I know I can rely on, depend on. Real friends, and blood relatives. They always remind me that they've got my back. But Father, I now know that no one can support me, lift me up, and protect me, like You can. You are really the only One I should be depending on.

Lord, I want to take back all the awful things I've said and done. I know I don't deserve Your forgiveness. But it's Your forgiveness I seek the most. Wash away all this tormenting guilt I have, clean me with Your precious blood.

Please help me get through these next few months, God, and help me remain calm with peace because of You, as my life undergoes some of the biggest changes I will have ever experience. You are larger than anything God, and I put You first in my life. I love you, Lord, and I know You love me.

In Jesus' precious name I pray, Amen.




Grace





Hey my loyal Graleb-Blog-Readers! Long time no blog. Been busy I guess.

Updates of what we've been up to:

• He's begun working at The Gluttony Cafe.
• He came to Malaysia on the 19th of November, and stayed till 22nd.
• She's been doing lots and lots of homework, and had been going crazy with Awards Night preparations.
• She surprised Caleb on Thanksgiving by appearing outside his door.

Yes! It's been very fun, and very busy lately. But we've found time to blog about our days together!

This is the list of what went down when he came down!

THURSDAY (19th November) he picked her up from school with mommykins Dancy. we went home, and baked like sixty chocolate chip cookies. then we got ready for Tang Soo Do, and went for that. got home, had dinner. cleaned up, and pretty much just went to bed.

FRIDAY (20th November) woke up pretty late. graleb went to mydin & jusco with mom and mary. had McD's for lunch. got home and rested. izzy came over and grace left with her to charity's. caleb hung out with daddykins borges. AWARDS NIGHT. got home, had ice cream. cleaned up. went to bed!

SATURDAY (21st November) went to DP. watched Planet 51. just relaxed. had pizza for lunch. got caught in the rain. went home! relaxed, and then went for a walk at night. got home, cleaned up, went to bed.

SUNDAY (22nd November) breakfast, church, crocker brothers' departures.

until.......

THURSDAY (26th November) grace & seth hitched a ride with the Burkes to Singapore! many many many lies to make it this far on grace's part. but the surprise was a success, and she arrived on the doorstep of the crockers' residence safely and totally unpronounced. we rested for a bit, then went across the street to a mall and sat down at McD's to talk. Walked around a bit, then got soda for Uncle Ray and Dr. Burke. went home, rested, then left for the Pletchers' for Thanksgiving dinner. It was great. After that, we went to Junction 8 to watch NEW MOON. had Hagaan Daz before the movie. oh, and new slippers cause grace's feet were in awful shape. dratted american eagle shoes. which she accidentally left in the Burkes' car on the way home. after the movie. came home, showered. bedtime.

FRIDAY (27th November) we attempted to wake up at 6. ended up getting up around 8.30. had McD's for breakfast. met Barney. went to vivo and hung out there for the whole morning. caleb brought grace out for lunch. what's better than Carl's Jr? nothing. their chilli cheese fries rock. went home after that. grownups got home and we left again to get blue tac at Popular across the street. left for HBC's activity center not too long after. had the GRAD ceremony where Caleb and BJ both gave heartmelting speeches. after, we mingled, then went home. went out for a walk, watched a bit of StarDust, then went to bed.

SATURDAY (28th November) woke up, went across the street for prata. was great! then we packed, and left for orchard where we would later meet the Burkes. bought a pint of Ben & Jerry's, subs, and then Grace and Seth left for home.

Next meeting? Unknown.

Graleb